| there is no mathematics to love and loss |
[May. 21st, 2007|09:07 am] |
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so, this empty feeling.. i don't like it. i mean, who does? since tuesday, i have been nothing but pre-occupied with the fact that austin and i are broken up and will probably remain as such. honestly, i love austin to death, and i love that we're still friends and still talk and stuff... but it feels like there's this hole in me that needs to be filled, and it was filled when he was here. i honestly don't know exactly how he feels, and i never will. i didn't expect to be his top priority or anything like that. we're not married.. we weren't in love. still, i love austin. he's amazing in so many ways which he probably doesn't know. as for that hole, i know i should be looking to God to fill it. ultimately, he's the only one who can. austin falls short, but God doesn't; he goes above and beyond. i hate the mortal need for concrete things. that seems to be our problem. nevertheless, this emptiness has yet to go away so i'm here.. being "happy" and "fine" when it feels like someone has blown up my insides. |
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| por que, maria? |
[May. 12th, 2007|12:00 pm] |
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so, i pretty much write in this thing because no one ever reads it. and if you happen to read it, i'm proud of you. really, i am. :]
well, i am worried. i don't know what about, really, but i am.
i'm hoping it's just pms. and if it is, it needs to stop..
like right now. i don't like this added stress to my life.
but seriously. you know when you feel like something's wrong?
and as far as you can tell, everything is fine for the moment.
that's the exact feeling that i have.
i have a slight idea as to what may be worrying me, but
it has never worried me to this extent to my knowledge. i feel empty. completely empty. |
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| waiting... |
[Apr. 14th, 2007|08:48 am] |
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| |  tired.. of people | ] |
so last night i had work. the whooooole time i felt like i had to sneeze and i couldn't. it sucked a LOT. and THEN at exactly 10:58 like.. 7 or 8 people come in. i've decided that people suck. you know, people are made in the image of God (big "G") and i'm pretty sure God wouldn't come into maggie moo's 2 minutes before close and ask for anything that isn't a jones soda or water or something like that. ughhhhhh people are stupid. seriously. and i'm frickin sick. goodness. i should have started coughing profusely in front of the customers. but that's bad for business. hmph. |
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| woah.. long time. |
[Apr. 12th, 2007|10:52 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
so i haven't been on here in forever. the only reason i am on here is actually because "I" sent someone something offensive on here.. ? idk it was confusing to me. but yeah. so today.. i didn't really understand any of the chemistry stuff.. computer was boring.. band was.. boring. and full of reading The Awakening, anddddd english was englishy. tonight i had dinner with austin's family, and i enjoyed it.. a lot. :] i love being around austin's family. sometimes i forget that people who work at and in a church are actually real people.. who DON'T like don panchos. it's strange, i know. it was nice talking to mr. brad and ms. libby about something other than music. i mean.. we did talk about music. it's kind of unavoidable after a concert. but you know.. they're real people and i love them a lot. well.. i'm going to bed. it's late. and that's where i belong.. in band. goodnight |
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| so yeah,, i don`t like to be lied to |
[Aug. 15th, 2005|03:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lie to me again. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Marrying Kind --Jessica Andrews | ] |
AMi x3 rOx: hate being lied to?
AMi x3 rOx: sounds like a certain blonde should update her lj
yes. thank you amira for reminding me to update this thing.
so yes, i hate being lied to.
&& not telling the whole truth counts as lying
even if the half you tell me is true
you still lied to me
i currently have a thing against boys.
i think they are icky
&& stupid
&& they deserve to have hard in-animate objects
forcefully hurled at them.
i mean,, if you`re not gonna tell someone
the whole truth, then don`t say anything about it at all.
it`s for your own benefit...trust me.
so yes, a select few people know exactly why i am so mad.
or some may not know what the crap i`m talking about.
so if you would like the story, IM me
&& i`ll tell you.
unless i just don`t want to tell you.
then ur pretty much screwed over.
this is probably the last of my rants
on this certain topic.
have a greaaaaat flippin day. |
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| 4 months later...((haha, sean!)) |
[Jul. 27th, 2005|09:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | the cartoon looks stoned | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ...i`m watching the cardinals game. lol | ] |
so yeah...
it hasn`t been as long since i updated as it was last time.
i`m getting good at this...
neways, um...yeah. the end of last week//the beginning of this week was the state tournament for my brother`s all star team thing. yeah. 3 days of being in the frickin hot//boring dyersburg sun! ahh! i hated my trip to dyersburg. they guys were rude, and the girls...well, we`ll just say i`ve never seen ruder oompa-loompas in my life! (they were quite the orange little things) and the bathrooms at the ball park...they were worse than the bathrooms at camp where one bathroom only had half a roof, and the other was like 1/8 of a mile away. yeah...these bathrooms had flies swarming around the toilet//on the floor and it smelled like a toxic waste dump...and it looked like one too. i actually like the bathrooms at school better...*shocking*...but yes. it was nastiness. speaking of school. i have been at band camp for the past 2 days and it`s been...weird...very weird. it`s not like it was last year and i miss the seniors from last year because they were um...crunk? lol of course, caitlin and stephanie and jimmy and zac are crunk too. some of the freshmen on the first day, i could have done without. but now it`s pretty cool i guess. um...yeah, this is a pretty boring entry. 1 week and 4 days until school starts back...=( |
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| ...ii'm back. =) |
[Jul. 18th, 2005|10:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ii MiSS Y0U | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Underneath Your Clothes -Shakyra | ] |
so yeah...i haven't done an entry in about a million forevers...so i kinda figured it was time for me to stop being lazy and do one. so here i am! quite a bit has happened since spring break...such as:
-me turning 15
-school letting out
-baseball starting
-meeting a boii too old for me (poo!)
-roughing it in the mountains!
-me getting my permit.
so...where shall i begin? ok, so yeah, school`s been out for quite a bit, and we only have like 3 weeks until it starts back again...or so we think. yeah, the budget has managed to get so extremely out of hand that they have to cut 8 million dollars worth of jobs from the schools. so pretty much, nothing for school is prepared b/c we don't really know which teachers are getting to keep their jobs and stuff. it's very frustrating, and has slightly ruined the last half of my summer. i would attempt to explain it, but that would take an eternity so i'll just leave it at i am a very mad girl. um...so yeah, we had youth camp june 13-17th and it was fuuuun. we did a little bit of climbing, a little bit of rafting, a little bit of horseback riding, a little sleeping, a lot of worshiping, and a lot of getting used to not having a/c seeing as there wasn't any in the place. but at the end of the week, it was all worth it. i turned 15 the last day we were there. =) i spent the better half of my birthday on a bus with about 60 other people, but it was all good. muy muy fun. the week after that i got to catch up on my sleep. yay. then the next week i had symphony camp...oh boii...looney went...that's enough to show what a wonderful time ii had...psh. um...and yeah the next friday i went to sammy's fifteenth birthday party. i showed up with a card, but left with something a little more special. =) i had the privelage of meeting her brother, and i think he is such a sweetheart! we got to talk for a while and stuff then dustin gave me eternal crap for not wanting to play this "couples game" with him...hm. i wonder why i didn't wanna play...! but neways, the friday after that, samantha and some of her family went to st. louis. so i pretty much spent most of my weekend on the phone w/ her (and zack would occasionally be like let me talk to her. *smiles*) and friday night she got to see the best game of the series live. grrr. and ofcourse i was on the phone with her when the best part happened b/c well...i'm good like that. =) so yeah, then today i went to the drivers place to get my permit. and i got it. yay. quite honestly the hardest part of the drivers test was signing my name on that weird computer pad thing...it's stupid. and i passed the eye test! w0w! then tonight i went to my brother's scrimmage game b/c meredith decided at the last minute that she wasn't gonna take me to the meeting at liberty, but she was gonna go watch willy wanka...o0o0o0ok...but yeah, i'm not too extremely disappointed b/c there was no productive activity made during that meeting b/c they couldn't vote on anything which is what they showed up to do...counterproductivity isn't good when you have angry jacksonians coming at you. well, that's all i have to say for now. |
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| Spring Break '05 is here...FINALLY! |
[Mar. 25th, 2005|01:21 pm] |
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| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Wonderful -everclear | ] |
um...not much has happened since tuesday...our concert went really well, but finding parking was awful! we had to walk pretty far from the school (wouldn't have been to bad if we weren't wearing heals) um...wednesday we didn't really do anything at school...but at lunch i found out stacie's brilliant idea for everyone to bring a date to the movies when we go for caitlin's birthday...so guess who got attacked in geometry!!! poor adrian...lol well, caitlin kept sayin she was gonna ask him to go with me, but i didn't want her to and i told her not to but she did it anyways, and she wrote him a note saying that i wanted to know if he'd go to the movie's with me blah blah blah which was a lie so...i don't know what he thought about that...lol um...then after school i came home...then i had lessons...then i came home and watched Silence of the Lambs while i was supposed to be doing homework...which i did...it was just during commercials. lol but yeah, it was a good movie. Thursday, um...we didn't really do anything in english...then we had a test in biology...then we played a new song we're doin for chicago in band...in lunch i saw aaron benson! yay! in geometry...haha fun geometry. well, for most of the class, we did what we usually do...you know, work...take notes...whatever...take a quiz. well, after the quiz we just kinda got to do whatever we want...well, the first thing i see caitlin and laura beth do is go over to where adrian was sitting and start talk to him soo i was like oooooooooooooooooooooo great so i just started talkin to sam and greg and laura beth runs over there to me and is like ok emma...he's about to ask you out. adrian's gonna ask you out, so just...chill, ok? and i was like um...ok. and then caitlin kept talkin to him and i guess he changed his mind or w/e...i dunno. lol but it's ok...i just need a date for the movies. lol um and after school was out and me and meredith were goin to get martin i saw danny! i miss him so much! and then for the rest of the day i...played basketball and slept. =D haha and today was our first day of spring break, and so far all i've done is eat...work out...lay out...and play basketball...i guess i should go run or something now, huh? lol
<3 em |
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| it's been a while...again. |
[Mar. 22nd, 2005|11:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ticked off! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My Boo -Usher feat. Alicia Keys | ] |
again...it's been pretty long since i've updated soooooo um...what's been going on is practices for the spring concert, concert festival, solo and ensemble, and...some other stuff. sooo
last sunday* jessie was in town =) for SB's funeral =( but i was soo happy to see her! i spent the whole day with her and hayley. first after church we went to Los Portales and celebrated Jessie's "birthday" and then after that me, hayley, jay, and her mom dropped hay and jay at hay's house so jay could get her permit and went down the street so i could change for the visitation then we were going back to hayley's house when jay's mom accidentally turned off my street the wrong way, and so we had to back up and we landed in this mini ditch...lol but after that we went to hayley's house and got hay and jay and jessie drove us to dave and hayley jackson's house! (scary stuff i know...) and we got to see anna riley and she was soo cute! then when we went to visitation, and the line was really frickin long! so jay's mom dropped us off at ashley's dorm and we met her boyfriend and stuff. he was really cool so we approved of him. lol then jay's mom called us from visitation so we went BACK over there and then we'd have to wait until 8 to talk to John and Ms. Teresa and the rest of the family, so we left for church and ran by dustin and coach P and brittany's houses and stuff then at church mark played the bag pipes and wore the whole little scottish outfit thing omg! it was hilarious!
last Monday*it was really sad...a lot of people at school were goin to the funeral and stuff, so it was sad. and i think i made beth cry it was just so sad. and we had solo & ensemble, so i couldn't go to the funeral unless i went that morning (which i didn't know we could do!) so i went during 4th and we got a 1 on both things we did so i was happy :) and it was ms. tere's birthday! so my day got better around the end of school. then later that night i was told that one of the students at our school was killed in a 4 wheeler accident b/c it flipped over on her and killed her. so that makes...2 people in less than a week. gosh...that's just too much to deal with. so i was stressed out the rest of the night.
last Tuesday*um...lots of crying...
Wednesday*the regular...school, band, lessons
Thursday*CONCERT FESTIVAL! WOO HOO! lol i don't feel like typin out everything that happened...but it was fun.
Friday*i got to stay after school for rehearsal for our spring concert and i found out that we had to sing a song. (band people don't sing...) but it was fun.
Saturday* i finally got to to shopping for the first time in a looooooong time! so i got some new pants...and i got something for ms. tere for her birthday and i saw danny but he was talkin to a customer person so i didn't get to talk to him. and i saw a lot of people out at like...target and stuff. i saw jessie and robbie, stacie, hannah, ethan, brett, and caroline and blaire.
Sunday*um...i went to church then i went to this bridal shower for my cousin and his fiance...i didn't even know he had a girlfriend...lol
Monday*...i really don't remember what i did in school...but we had practice again after school.
today*um...nothing interesting happened...until lunch...then dustin started yellin at me b/c i was mad @ him for sayin jessie was a slut and he was tryin to say he didn't and all this crap. and jessica said she'd yell at him for me if he bothered me again (i love you, jessica ashley!) so i'm still pretty ticked about that...but as andrew would say..."no drama! nooooo drama..." lol well i'm gonna go do homework and stuff.
<3 em |
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[Mar. 12th, 2005|09:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  what to think... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
well...it's been a long time since i've updated...so basically what's happened up to now is i went to all west and had a good time hangin out with some people i don't usually get to hang out with...came back...had a church tournament...lost, but that's ok b/c i was ready for the season to end...First Baptist won the A bracket, First Pres. won the B bracket (i think)
-Thursday- i got hit with some of the hardest news i've ever gotten...my friend SB was in a coma over at Vanderbilt in Nashville (later i found out she had meningitis) and she died friday morning at 2:20. i still can't believe she's gone...i keep thinking she's gonna be back wednesday and hang out with us at the church...but she's not... :( in her memory i've decided to dedicate this entry to her.
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:18:25 PM): oh yea did u see the thing about the usj gurls basket ball team ad what they did
xcchiqemma (9:18:33 PM): yeah
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:18:38 PM): thats awsome
xcchiqemma (9:18:39 PM): it made me cry
xcchiqemma (9:18:42 PM): yeah it was
xcchiqemma (9:21:19 PM): are u goin to the visitation tomorrow?
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:21:22 PM): yep
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:21:29 PM): why wouldnt i
xcchiqemma (9:21:32 PM): i probably am
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:21:40 PM): ife only known sb like all my life
xcchiqemma (9:21:46 PM): i can't go make it to the funeral and i'm sooo sad
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:21:50 PM): well all that i remeber anyways
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:22:12 PM): me and jordan both have and we havnt been to emotional at all
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:22:31 PM): it kinda makes me feel bad that were not
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:22:54 PM): but we both felt like it was a good thing that she died and went to heaven
xcchiqemma (9:23:01 PM): yeah
xcchiqemma (9:23:26 PM): b/c if she had lived she'd have meningitis all her life and she'd have to deal with it
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:23:51 PM): yea i dnt know what that is but i herd that she would have some problems to
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:24:12 PM): and she liked to play sports so she wouldnt be happy like she always is anymored
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:24:14 PM): more
xcchiqemma (9:24:25 PM): and it would probably be harder for everyone if she had lived b/c i mean yeah, she wouldn't be happy
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:25:11 PM): lol me and jordan were talkin to calvin and thinkin about that she was probly walkin around in heaven goin this is freakin awsome
xcchiqemma (9:25:42 PM): yeah :-)
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:26:07 PM): oh yea and u probly herd this to but most of her organs went to save people
xcchiqemma (9:26:50 PM): yeah
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:28:22 PM): i thought that was pretty cool
xcchiqemma (9:29:36 PM): yeah
xcchiqemma (9:29:47 PM): i can't picture her being still...like at all
xcchiqemma (9:29:58 PM): so it hasn't really completely sunken in...
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:30:04 PM): i know
DUKE HoOpZ 21 (9:30:31 PM): i keep on thinkin that i will go back to school and she will be there like usal
xcchiqemma (9:30:47 PM): yeah
xcchiqemma (9:43:13 PM): i was runnin around usin my SB word "sweetness"
JunJr2000 (9:17:49 PM): hey hey
xcchiqemma (9:20:09 PM): heyhey
JunJr2000 (9:22:02 PM): whats up?
xcchiqemma (9:27:50 PM): nm
xcchiqemma (9:27:51 PM): thinkin
JunJr2000 (9:28:34 PM): wana talk about it?
xcchiqemma (9:30:16 PM): yeah like...i've been thinkin about SB dyin and i know i should be happy b/c she doesn't have to deal with all the pain that she'd have to if she was still alive
xcchiqemma (9:30:33 PM): and she's probably walkin around in heaven saying what she always said...
xcchiqemma (9:30:43 PM): "DUDE! THIS IS FRICKIN AWSOME!"
JunJr2000 (9:30:49 PM): hahaha
JunJr2000 (9:30:55 PM): she sounds like a really great person
xcchiqemma (9:31:25 PM): yeah she was the coolest
JunJr2000 (9:31:28 PM): i wish i could've know her as an individual, but im sure she's having a blast right about now
xcchiqemma (9:31:42 PM): she didn't try to impress everyone ya know?
JunJr2000 (9:31:50 PM): yeah
xcchiqemma (9:31:51 PM): like she was soooo different from anyone i've ever met
JunJr2000 (9:33:12 PM): life is just unfair sometimes you know?
xcchiqemma (9:33:28 PM): yeah
JunJr2000 (9:33:36 PM): but it's god's choice and im sure it's for the better
xcchiqemma (9:34:48 PM): 'yeah
xcchiqemma (9:35:07 PM): at first i thought that she was missing so much b/c she died so young
xcchiqemma (9:35:25 PM): but really i'm missin out b/c she's up there and doesnt' have to deal with any crap
xcchiqemma (9:35:53 PM): and i'm down here tryin to get there...
JunJr2000 (9:36:11 PM): we'll all have our time
JunJr2000 (9:36:32 PM): but man, i agree with you, im tired of all this crap we have to do down here
JunJr2000 (9:36:46 PM): sometimes i wish it'd all just go away
xcchiqemma (9:36:55 PM): yeah
JunJr2000 (9:41:02 PM): try to cheer up, and i hope you feel better
xcchiqemma (9:42:19 PM): yeah...after a while i'll probably get used to it...well not get used to it...but u know what i mean
JunJr2000 (9:42:39 PM): 'gotcha
xcchiqemma (9:43:19 PM): yeah
xcchiqemma (9:43:26 PM): i mean i'm glad she's happy
JunJr2000 (9:48:57 PM): im sure of it
JunJr2000 (9:52:37 PM): Heaven Happiness, enjoyment, action, virtue, EATING, and uhh... well N is a hard one
xcchiqemma (9:52:49 PM): yeah
xcchiqemma (9:53:03 PM): N- no more crap...pain...night...
:-(
xcchiqemma (7:36:25 PM):
We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that i'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that he is...
Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
-in memory of SB Whitehead 1990-2005
ChineseSweetie2 (7:36:37 PM): i dont really know her but i want her back too
ChineseSweetie2 (7:36:42 PM): but shes in a better place now
xcchiqemma (8:21:24 PM): yeah i'm glad she is...u know in a better place
ChineseSweetie2 (8:21:36 PM): im sorry ur sad tho
ChineseSweetie2 (8:21:49 PM): im sad but i really dont kno who she is except she had meningitis
ChineseSweetie2 (8:21:58 PM): and went to trinity and she was 14
ChineseSweetie2 (9:20:36 PM): love ya and im sorry about sb
xcchiqemma (9:20:43 PM): i love u too! thanks
LiLLa112 (7:45:45 PM): how are you
xcchiqemma (9:10:29 PM): omg eric i miss SB so much
LiLLa112 (9:11:36 PM): were you two really close
xcchiqemma (9:12:20 PM): yeah
xcchiqemma (9:20:21 PM): did u see that article about her?
LiLLa112 (9:21:57 PM): no i didn't see it
xcchiqemma (9:22:48 PM): oh well it was on the front page
xcchiqemma (9:22:54 PM): omg it made me so sad
LiLLa112 (9:24:58 PM): are you feeling any better
xcchiqemma (9:27:28 PM): yeah...this guy calvin was talkin about how she would always say stuff was so frickin awsome
xcchiqemma (9:27:44 PM): and he was like she's probably in heaven walkin around like dude! this is frickin awsome!
LiLLa112 (9:29:26 PM): I guess it kinda does make you think, huh
xcchiqemma (9:29:31 PM): yeah
LiLLa112 (9:31:52 PM): are you going to go to her funeral
xcchiqemma (9:32:44 PM): i probably won't b/c we have Solo and Ensemble and i can't drop out b/c i'm doin this group thing
xcchiqemma (9:32:55 PM): but if i wasn't i'd drop out of it b/c it's the same time her funeral is
xcchiqemma (9:33:06 PM): but i might go to her burial...but i dunno
xcchiqemma (9:33:25 PM): i mean...i want to...but i don't want to at the same time ya know?
LiLLa112 (9:34:36 PM): yea i get ya
xcchiqemma (9:37:34 PM): i dunno...i guess i just have to think about it
xcchiqemma (9:38:24 PM): but i'm goin to think about it
xcchiqemma (9:38:32 PM): and ask my mom about it
LiLLa112 (9:40:36 PM): o
LiLLa112 (9:41:25 PM): so how did she die
xcchiqemma (9:45:04 PM): like she got meningitis and basically what it does is make the layer around ur brain swell and it does serious brain damage to a person and it's like...the only disease that can kill a perfectly healthy person under 21 in 24 hours
xcchiqemma (9:45:10 PM): so that's how she dies
xcchiqemma (9:45:12 PM): died**
LiLLa112 (9:45:59 PM): how did she get it
xcchiqemma (9:46:43 PM): like i think it said that you can get it when you have like the flu and stuff like that
xcchiqemma (9:46:55 PM): and she had the flu for a while last month or something
xcchiqemma (9:46:58 PM): so that's how she got it
xcchiqemma (9:47:27 PM): and like it gets into spinal fluid adn that's how it gets to the brain
LiLLa112 (9:48:22 PM): did her parents know she had it
xcchiqemma (9:51:28 PM): they didn't know until thursday when they took her to Jackson General
xcchiqemma (9:52:12 PM): and then they had to fly her over the vanderbilt b/c they couldn't do nething for her
LiLLa112 (9:52:40 PM): is their a cure for it
xcchiqemma (9:53:23 PM): i don't know
xcchiqemma (9:53:41 PM): i think there is...it's just that there are no symptoms for it
LiLLa112 (9:54:19 PM): how did they kno to take her to the hospital
xcchiqemma (9:55:29 PM): she passed out thursday morning
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:11:31 PM): who put up that awy message for sb
xcchiqemma (9:11:43 PM): which one?
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:11:55 PM): crazyfreshman09
xcchiqemma (9:12:46 PM): her brother
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:12:55 PM): oh that's great
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:12:58 PM): really nice..
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:13:02 PM): ..johns sweet
xcchiqemma (9:13:09 PM): yeah
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:13:16 PM): do you know..his sn
xcchiqemma (9:13:16 PM): i'm really glad that he put that
xcchiqemma (9:13:19 PM): nope
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:13:33 PM): lol
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:13:40 PM): not lol
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:13:41 PM): wrong im
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:13:43 PM): .. me too though
xcchiqemma (9:13:54 PM): yeah
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:14:23 PM): im lookin at her pics, im about to cry again omg
xcchiqemma (9:14:53 PM): yeah when beth called me and told me that SB had died i was reading the stuff from her volleyball pictures
xcchiqemma (9:15:08 PM): about their season being over and her's continuing for 3 more years
xcchiqemma (9:15:14 PM): it got me so hard
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:16:27 PM): yeah
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:19:20 PM): i made a 100 on her quiz..w/o help
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:19:24 PM): ohh im crying again
AlExAnDrA 6241 (9:19:27 PM): shhh poo
xcchiqemma (9:19:29 PM): aww!
Manderz708 (9:24:49 PM): hey
xcchiqemma (9:24:53 PM): heyhey
Manderz708 (9:24:54 PM): u ok???
Manderz708 (9:25:55 PM): *gives u big hug* i kno u been really sad lately bout SB as well as myself but just remember...she is up in heaven now with no more pain....and she wouldnt want us 2 b all sad
xcchiqemma (9:26:07 PM): yeah...i mean...it's gonna take a while to get used to
Manderz708 (9:26:19 PM): yea
xcchiqemma (9:26:41 PM): yeah i'm talkin to aaron and he said that one of his friends said that she's probably walkin around heaven goin "this is frickin AWSOME!"
xcchiqemma (9:26:44 PM): :-)
Manderz708 (9:26:58 PM): haha yea
Manderz708 (9:27:53 PM): and she thought TCA was awesome...
Manderz708 (9:27:56 PM): haha
xcchiqemma (9:27:59 PM): yeah
Manderz708 (9:30:43 PM): i bet she is smilin real big cuz so many ppl care that she is gone
xcchiqemma (9:30:58 PM): like i was thinkin about it and if she was alive she'd have that disease all her life, and since she loves like...sports and all, she wouldn't be happy here
xcchiqemma (9:31:13 PM): yeah...in a way i'm kinda smilin too...ya know?
Manderz708 (9:32:00 PM): but i bet she is sayin "they shouldnt be sad cuz im gone..they should be sad cuz they r missin out on such an awesome place"
Manderz708 (9:32:04 PM): yepp
xcchiqemma (9:32:08 PM): yeah
xcchiqemma (9:32:12 PM): we are missin out
Manderz708 (9:32:18 PM): that is what she lived her life for
Manderz708 (9:32:23 PM): 4 God
Manderz708 (9:34:44 PM): and she is now where she deserves 2b
Manderz708 (9:34:46 PM): 2 b*
xcchiqemma (9:36:01 PM): yeah
xcchiqemma (9:36:29 PM): gosh, i never realized how short life was until she died
Manderz708 (9:36:42 PM): yea i kno
Manderz708 (9:36:44 PM): :-(
xcchiqemma (9:36:45 PM): then i was just like thinking to myself that i need to get it together
xcchiqemma (9:36:49 PM): b/c i'm not ready
Manderz708 (9:36:52 PM): yea i thought the same
Manderz708 (9:36:59 PM): me & christin talked about that
Manderz708 (9:37:02 PM): but ya kno im glad...
Manderz708 (9:37:06 PM): cuz i kno sb was ready
xcchiqemma (9:37:11 PM): yeah
Manderz708 (9:37:30 PM): so she deserved 2 go 2 heaven
Manderz708 (9:37:35 PM): I think God took her b/c he knew she was ready
xcchiqemma (9:37:40 PM): yeah
Manderz708 (9:37:42 PM): and he needed another Angel by his side
xcchiqemma (9:37:55 PM): yeah i think he was tired of waiting for someone so awsome
Manderz708 (9:38:02 PM): and that he is usin her life as an example 2 us...b/c he knew how many ppl she affected
Manderz708 (9:38:03 PM): haha yea
xcchiqemma (9:38:18 PM): yeah
Manderz708 (9:41:55 PM): ok well im gonna go now
xcchiqemma (9:42:22 PM): ok
xcchiqemma (9:42:35 PM): *huuuuuuuuggs!* thank u so much little cousin!
xcchiqemma (9:42:37 PM): i love you!
Manderz708 (9:43:39 PM): no prob
Manderz708 (9:43:45 PM): *gives u big hug*
Manderz708 (9:43:53 PM): *gives u another hug for SB*
Manderz708 (9:43:58 PM): I love you too cuz!!!!!
xcchiqemma (9:44:06 PM): thanks! i'll see you tomorrow!
xcchiqemma (9:44:24 PM): i'm here for u sweetie if u wanna talk a/b nething netime!
Manderz708 (9:45:23 PM): u 2!
Manderz708 (9:45:27 PM): love ya
Manderz708 (9:45:28 PM): byebye
xcchiqemma (9:45:36 PM): byebye
SURROUNED BY YOUR GLORY
WHAT WILL MY HEART FEEL
WILL I DANCE FOR YOU JESUS
OR IN AWE OF YOU BE STILL
WILL I STAND IN YOUR PRESENCE
OR TO MY KNEES WILL I FALL
WILL I SING HALLEJULAH
WILL I BE ABLE TO SPEAK @ ALL
I CAN ONLY IMAGINE
WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH SB AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!-betsy's away message
sb..we all miss you so much and love you
too!! at least we know your in a better
place..can't wait to see you in Heaven!!-alexandra's away message
hey guys wats up? i want to tell yall not to worry bout me b/c i am in the most amazing place ever and with the greatest person to ever walk this earth. i want yall to keep living ur life and to live ur life for jesus!!!!! i love all of yall very much-SB's away message (john wrote it)
RIP
SB WHITEHEAD
1990-2005-Sidney's profile
*Sarah Elizabeth "SB" Whitehead
you are proof that life is too short 1990- 3/11/2005
"I will live my life for Chirst even if it means dying;
He gave his life for me why not me for him"
-SB
*i know ur in a better place now...looking down at us smiling.-my profile
"I will live my life for Chirst even if it means dying; He gave his life for me why not me for him"-sarah elizabeth whitehead "sb";my msu sister
Sarah beth was 1 of the greatest role models i could probably ever have.She loved the Lord with all her heart and did her best at everything that she ever reached for. Her prayer life with the Lord was awesome.It the closest ive ever known anyone's to be. Though she is not with us any longer,im thrilled to be able to say that i will see her again someday. I love you sb. Youve always taught me 2 look at the world through smiling eyes. thanx 4 always encouraging me with my walk with the Lord.-meredith callis's profile
"I will live my life for Chirst even if it means dying,He gave his life for me why not me for him"
In memory of Sarah Elizabeth Whitehead 1990-2005-Grayson's profile
...sb was such an awsome girl! and i can't wait until i see her again! I LOVE YOU SB!
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